Going Toward the Light!
I've been really struggling throughout the winter w/ my bills, taxes, and just finances in general. Just when I saw the light at the end of the tunnel and said "Wow - by April 10th, everything will be good again!", I got a $470 bill. Then just when I said "Okay but then, wow! By May 8th I will be all caught up" then I hit a snag with my taxes. Now today I got hit with ANOTHER $422 bill - which I'm hoping I can actually get removed if I play my cards right. But DAMN! Everytime I see that light at the end of the tunnel, someone spins me around and tries to push me in the other direction!!!! I NEED TO GET TO THAT LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!
But I realize though that I've made some pretty good sacrafices - and am continuing to do so.
I quit getting my nails done. I love having them done - it's one of those "treat yourself" things. But at $40-60 a month....Can't do it. I miss it....it's been....5 months.
Carpool. Doesn't always work out - but Stephanie and I try to alternate weeks for driving to work. It helps a ton.
Picked up a second job. Does not pay well AT ALL!!! But for now, at least it's a little cushion.
Spreadsheet: I have a spreadsheet where I track literally every cent that I spend - and what I spend it on. From my mortgage pmt to the .50 Diet Cokes I drink at work every day. It's amazing to see all the unnecessary expenses that I was oblivious too.
Bars: Sometimes I may still get a little crazy, but overall....I don't spend much (NOTHING LIKE I DID LAST YEAR) on going out. I go to Horseshoes almost every Friday night now if I'm looking for something fun to do. $1 taps and .50 pool. Can't go wrong.
Groceries: I'm slummin it. I'm actually buying regularly at the Save-A-Lot. But you know - today I got 4 bags of groceries (plastic) - and only spent $39.16. It isn't a classy place but there are some great deals. Still have to go to the regular grocery stores for some certain things....but not much!
Cooking in bulk: I'm trying to cook 4 or 5 servings at a time...and freeze. It's much easier to grab from the freezer for lunches before work, than it is to prepare something or give up and go out for lunch.
Credit Cards. A couple months ago, I cut up a couple credit cards. It's helped a ton - amazing how fast the balances drop when you don't use them! Tonight....I cut up another. This one was a tough one....but it NEEDED to be done.
I know it's gonna' get better.....it's sooo close! I'm so damn close - it's literally "2 steps forward, 1 back" and I don't want those backwards steps! I can see that light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm running out of breath trying to chase it!!! *sigh*. But I will do it. I need to keep realizing that - 3 months ago I was in tears thinking "what am I going to do??! I can't live like this" to "only a few more weeks to go, and I'll be alright". That's a pretty giant step in a short amount of time. I know it won't be like this forever. And once I'm caught up here....my remaining balances on things can get lowered faster. For that I am excited, and for that I will remain optimistic and keep striving. I'm so close. It's gonna be a tight month - maybe even 2 months - but it's worth it. So if I am canceling any plans in the near future, or not up for doing dinner/drinks/movies/whatever....don't forget about me. Just understand I need to be disciplined and get this done. Striving for the light!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
3 years past, 3 years future
3 years past 3 years future
February was a terrible month for me this year. Seasonal Affective Disorder hit hard!!! Well...it wasn't completely the weather. One day I had a surprise breakdown in the breakroom at work with a coworker. It started with me saying "I need a vacation" and then next thing I knew I had completely burst into tears. Was it work related...not really. It was just so many things going on where I COULDN'T work - I cried multiple times a day at my desk and I have NEVER been this way. I said to my friend, "I'm in a complete opposite place from where I was last year at this time. Last year I didn't know who I was or what I wanted, and I just partied my ass off. This year I know who I am, I know what I want and I can't have anything" - it sounded dramatic but I really was in a bad place. I was trying so hard to get where I wanted to be and I just road block after road block. My friend said to me "yes, but look at how far you've come in that one year and think about where you will be in another year". It was a great point. And things have gotten much better. I did take a little time off to myself and just kind of breathe for a while. That helped, and now the snow is gone and the sun is coming out and outdoor activities are starting again, so I'm doing well.
I started thinking about my friend's statement again today. I started thinking about what has happened in the last 3 years....and where I'd like to be in the next 3 years.
So...in the last 3 years...what a ride. 3 years ago, I still had my same job, but I only knew about 20% of what I know now. I had ended a relationship that needed to end, but remained friends. Jon was a best friend, a mentor, he was truly my every day . I became an aunti to my best firiend's child. I became an aunti to my brother's child. I bought my house. I did. All by myself. A few days later Jon passed away. Who cared about a house at that point? Who cared about anything? That was without a doubt, the hardest thing I have ever been through....it didn't last a day, it didn't last a month...how long did it last? I'll tell you when it's over. But I dealt. Even though all I wanted to do was go to work, come home and go to bed...I jumped back into the game and graduated from college. I took on new projects at my work, I started some remodel projects at home (I'll let you know when that's over too - hahaha!), I went to NC to be my best friend's maid of honor. My work sent me to Portland (just for a day) but I was flattered to be asked, I met SO many new friends that I'm thankful for in so many ways. I went to Salt Lake and visited my grandmother whom I have not heard from in....about 7 or 8 years, I went to New York....I really came a long way and crammed in a lot of things. When I look back on that, especially through the hardest part, I am amazed at how I pulled through and the things I have done.
Now to look ahead to the next few years.
Three years from now. 2012. Wow. I would like to have the house to myself in 3 years. Let me rephrase that. I would like to be able to comfortably afford my house to myself in 3 years. I love my roommates - they are fantastic. But I am excited to make a little office and have the spare room set up for guests. Not anytime soon though - so Tom if you are reading this - don't you leave me! :) I would like to have a new title at my work. Maybe I won't be in Duluth - I don't know. I've given myself a year to find out if I still feel the need to wander. I will have taken at least one road trip - that will take place in the next few months. :) I will have replaced the windows in the bedrooms, you know what? Just now I'm realizing that I don't want to make these plans. When I looked back on the previous 3 years, I was very happy to see what I had done....not what I didn't do. Maybe that's a better way to look at. Strive forward, but look back!!! Yep. I think I like this.
Okay, so apparently this blog took an entirely different turn from its original destination, but...I think I like where it's taking me.
February was a terrible month for me this year. Seasonal Affective Disorder hit hard!!! Well...it wasn't completely the weather. One day I had a surprise breakdown in the breakroom at work with a coworker. It started with me saying "I need a vacation" and then next thing I knew I had completely burst into tears. Was it work related...not really. It was just so many things going on where I COULDN'T work - I cried multiple times a day at my desk and I have NEVER been this way. I said to my friend, "I'm in a complete opposite place from where I was last year at this time. Last year I didn't know who I was or what I wanted, and I just partied my ass off. This year I know who I am, I know what I want and I can't have anything" - it sounded dramatic but I really was in a bad place. I was trying so hard to get where I wanted to be and I just road block after road block. My friend said to me "yes, but look at how far you've come in that one year and think about where you will be in another year". It was a great point. And things have gotten much better. I did take a little time off to myself and just kind of breathe for a while. That helped, and now the snow is gone and the sun is coming out and outdoor activities are starting again, so I'm doing well.
I started thinking about my friend's statement again today. I started thinking about what has happened in the last 3 years....and where I'd like to be in the next 3 years.
So...in the last 3 years...what a ride. 3 years ago, I still had my same job, but I only knew about 20% of what I know now. I had ended a relationship that needed to end, but remained friends. Jon was a best friend, a mentor, he was truly my every day . I became an aunti to my best firiend's child. I became an aunti to my brother's child. I bought my house. I did. All by myself. A few days later Jon passed away. Who cared about a house at that point? Who cared about anything? That was without a doubt, the hardest thing I have ever been through....it didn't last a day, it didn't last a month...how long did it last? I'll tell you when it's over. But I dealt. Even though all I wanted to do was go to work, come home and go to bed...I jumped back into the game and graduated from college. I took on new projects at my work, I started some remodel projects at home (I'll let you know when that's over too - hahaha!), I went to NC to be my best friend's maid of honor. My work sent me to Portland (just for a day) but I was flattered to be asked, I met SO many new friends that I'm thankful for in so many ways. I went to Salt Lake and visited my grandmother whom I have not heard from in....about 7 or 8 years, I went to New York....I really came a long way and crammed in a lot of things. When I look back on that, especially through the hardest part, I am amazed at how I pulled through and the things I have done.
Now to look ahead to the next few years.
Three years from now. 2012. Wow. I would like to have the house to myself in 3 years. Let me rephrase that. I would like to be able to comfortably afford my house to myself in 3 years. I love my roommates - they are fantastic. But I am excited to make a little office and have the spare room set up for guests. Not anytime soon though - so Tom if you are reading this - don't you leave me! :) I would like to have a new title at my work. Maybe I won't be in Duluth - I don't know. I've given myself a year to find out if I still feel the need to wander. I will have taken at least one road trip - that will take place in the next few months. :) I will have replaced the windows in the bedrooms, you know what? Just now I'm realizing that I don't want to make these plans. When I looked back on the previous 3 years, I was very happy to see what I had done....not what I didn't do. Maybe that's a better way to look at. Strive forward, but look back!!! Yep. I think I like this.
Okay, so apparently this blog took an entirely different turn from its original destination, but...I think I like where it's taking me.
Doing Something More (March 25 2009)
Doing Something More
Doing Something More
Well...I can't figure out how to get these to post to facebook yet, and maybe I won't figure it out. But I need to write anyway. I haven't written in a long time and I can feel it. Writing is the best release for me...I like when others read my posts, but even if they don't...it's never a waste to free the mind for a while.
Before I begin, I have to say..."SAW" is on TV right now and my neck literally hurts because I'm kinked in such a way so I DO NOT have to see any of it...and am disturbed that there are 3 people on my couch right now who seem to be really into it.
On to Something More. I don't know know what's happened lately...possibly it's a combination of events. But I do feel like I need to do something more with my life. Do not get me wrong, I am very happy where I am...but something has to change. I'm in a routine. Routine = stability (as I kind of give a "yeah right" giggle) but Routine also = Boredom. For the last couple months I have researched new career opportunities, new places to live, and have had baby fever. Then I realized the following:
Career: I love my job. I have been there for 5 years and I am learning more new things every single day. I have a great bunch of co-workers, and while it's no Doctor's salary...it's definitely acceptable. So why was I freaking out? Well...kind of because of my other thoughts for life's path. The economy is a burden for all of us right now...so I thought "I need to be in a field where I can make even more money"....as time went on, I wised up and realized....I'm safe in my job. We are doing great with no layoffs...why the hell would I risk my job security at a time like this - when it's a job I love? Well...that's where it morfs into wanting to move.
Where to Live: I've been in Duluth for basically 9 years. I lived out in Fredericksburg, VA for a little while, but then came back to Duluth. So part of it is...I'm feeling the itch to go. I miss being able to pack up and leave. Kind of miss the free spirit part of my soul. I own a house. I love my house...I've put a lot into it already, and it's exhausting...but...it's mine...and someday someone else will live here, and see what was "me" and then make it their own. All a part of the history. But....it's not easy to up and sell a house, not that I really even want to...but can't move away if you're a homeowner (at least not the average middle class Non-Snowbird homeowner). Also...my dog. I love her dearly and she is getting older. Still acts like a pup, but I'm facing it - she's getting older...and I wouldn't put her through a move just because "I'm bored". Now...going backwards a bit but...my other big thought was "Okay...let's say I move...what will I do for work?" Then I rolled backwards into the career choices. Is IT right for me? Yes, IT is a great field that will always be in high demand...but am I good enough yet? Would anyone else take me if I had to leave? I know it sounds silly. I didn't go to school for IT though - I learned everything I know while I've been there. And I've learned a lot...but still scared me to think about what else I could do.
Tieing up those thoughts: Economy + boredom = calm down and be patient. I'm going to give it another year - through another crappy winter, and when financial means are a little more managable, then if I still feel the same as I do right now...then I will reevaluate and make plans.
Baby Fever: Again...last couple months, I've been thinking about how much I want a baby. But I don't ever want to be a single mom. That got me thinking "If I met that person RIGHT NOW - and we got married in 3 years....and a year later I had a baby....I'd already be at least 31". Sounds silly that I thought all that...but those are the words that go with "tick....tock....tick...tock..." It really bothered me. Then in the last couple weeks, it really hit me that...it's not really "BABY fever" - it's "FAMILY fever". I'm not necessarily ready to jump in to having a child right now. But I'm ready just to settle down. I've had a great run of my party years (not to say that they are over....but not to define me anymore). I've got a house, and a great job....and I'm just ready for the rest. I'm ready to meet "that guy" - I'm ready to share my life. And that scares the hell out of me. For anyone that knows me well, I have done/still do everything on my own. I was brought up very independent and I love that about myself. But there is a difference between independent and selfish. I'm ready to share my life with someone. And to throw one last backwards zinger in there: If that isn't going to happen here in Duluth (which I really question), then where?
So all of these thoughts have led me to one great thing that I am very excited about. ROAD TRIP!!!! Late summer/early fall - I am taking 2 weeks - and I'm driving (just me) down to Denver to see my aunt, over to Salt Lake to see my grandma, and down to AZ to visit a friend (maybe a few - seems a lot of people are heading that way!!!). I think doing this, will put this whole blog (aside from the "SAW" junk) in perspective. Road trips are a great way to clear the mind. Plus...if I'm contemplating moving at all....I think this will either kill the bug (most likely) or confirm that it's time to go.
Until then....I would like to do something more with my life....and I don't know what exactly that means. I thought for about 3 seconds of going military...then I laughed my ass off. Sorry family, I still broke that chain. I respect it - I respect the hell out of it, but not anything that I would ever want to do. Maybe some sort of volunteer work. If I can get the time (which I don't have a lot of lately), maybe an Animal Shelter, or a mentor. I think that would be good. I'm not saying I'm on a mission to save the world or any Bono stuff like that...but I want to do something that does make a difference, to someone, to something, maybe even just to me. So if you have any ideas...I'm all ears....or eyes...
Doing Something More
Well...I can't figure out how to get these to post to facebook yet, and maybe I won't figure it out. But I need to write anyway. I haven't written in a long time and I can feel it. Writing is the best release for me...I like when others read my posts, but even if they don't...it's never a waste to free the mind for a while.
Before I begin, I have to say..."SAW" is on TV right now and my neck literally hurts because I'm kinked in such a way so I DO NOT have to see any of it...and am disturbed that there are 3 people on my couch right now who seem to be really into it.
On to Something More. I don't know know what's happened lately...possibly it's a combination of events. But I do feel like I need to do something more with my life. Do not get me wrong, I am very happy where I am...but something has to change. I'm in a routine. Routine = stability (as I kind of give a "yeah right" giggle) but Routine also = Boredom. For the last couple months I have researched new career opportunities, new places to live, and have had baby fever. Then I realized the following:
Career: I love my job. I have been there for 5 years and I am learning more new things every single day. I have a great bunch of co-workers, and while it's no Doctor's salary...it's definitely acceptable. So why was I freaking out? Well...kind of because of my other thoughts for life's path. The economy is a burden for all of us right now...so I thought "I need to be in a field where I can make even more money"....as time went on, I wised up and realized....I'm safe in my job. We are doing great with no layoffs...why the hell would I risk my job security at a time like this - when it's a job I love? Well...that's where it morfs into wanting to move.
Where to Live: I've been in Duluth for basically 9 years. I lived out in Fredericksburg, VA for a little while, but then came back to Duluth. So part of it is...I'm feeling the itch to go. I miss being able to pack up and leave. Kind of miss the free spirit part of my soul. I own a house. I love my house...I've put a lot into it already, and it's exhausting...but...it's mine...and someday someone else will live here, and see what was "me" and then make it their own. All a part of the history. But....it's not easy to up and sell a house, not that I really even want to...but can't move away if you're a homeowner (at least not the average middle class Non-Snowbird homeowner). Also...my dog. I love her dearly and she is getting older. Still acts like a pup, but I'm facing it - she's getting older...and I wouldn't put her through a move just because "I'm bored". Now...going backwards a bit but...my other big thought was "Okay...let's say I move...what will I do for work?" Then I rolled backwards into the career choices. Is IT right for me? Yes, IT is a great field that will always be in high demand...but am I good enough yet? Would anyone else take me if I had to leave? I know it sounds silly. I didn't go to school for IT though - I learned everything I know while I've been there. And I've learned a lot...but still scared me to think about what else I could do.
Tieing up those thoughts: Economy + boredom = calm down and be patient. I'm going to give it another year - through another crappy winter, and when financial means are a little more managable, then if I still feel the same as I do right now...then I will reevaluate and make plans.
Baby Fever: Again...last couple months, I've been thinking about how much I want a baby. But I don't ever want to be a single mom. That got me thinking "If I met that person RIGHT NOW - and we got married in 3 years....and a year later I had a baby....I'd already be at least 31". Sounds silly that I thought all that...but those are the words that go with "tick....tock....tick...tock..." It really bothered me. Then in the last couple weeks, it really hit me that...it's not really "BABY fever" - it's "FAMILY fever". I'm not necessarily ready to jump in to having a child right now. But I'm ready just to settle down. I've had a great run of my party years (not to say that they are over....but not to define me anymore). I've got a house, and a great job....and I'm just ready for the rest. I'm ready to meet "that guy" - I'm ready to share my life. And that scares the hell out of me. For anyone that knows me well, I have done/still do everything on my own. I was brought up very independent and I love that about myself. But there is a difference between independent and selfish. I'm ready to share my life with someone. And to throw one last backwards zinger in there: If that isn't going to happen here in Duluth (which I really question), then where?
So all of these thoughts have led me to one great thing that I am very excited about. ROAD TRIP!!!! Late summer/early fall - I am taking 2 weeks - and I'm driving (just me) down to Denver to see my aunt, over to Salt Lake to see my grandma, and down to AZ to visit a friend (maybe a few - seems a lot of people are heading that way!!!). I think doing this, will put this whole blog (aside from the "SAW" junk) in perspective. Road trips are a great way to clear the mind. Plus...if I'm contemplating moving at all....I think this will either kill the bug (most likely) or confirm that it's time to go.
Until then....I would like to do something more with my life....and I don't know what exactly that means. I thought for about 3 seconds of going military...then I laughed my ass off. Sorry family, I still broke that chain. I respect it - I respect the hell out of it, but not anything that I would ever want to do. Maybe some sort of volunteer work. If I can get the time (which I don't have a lot of lately), maybe an Animal Shelter, or a mentor. I think that would be good. I'm not saying I'm on a mission to save the world or any Bono stuff like that...but I want to do something that does make a difference, to someone, to something, maybe even just to me. So if you have any ideas...I'm all ears....or eyes...
Time off and its side effects
Time off and its side effects.
Current mood:confident
As many of you can tell....I've been bored off my ass today!!! I've been on myspace...AND EVEN FACEBOOK - pretty much all day. Couldn't sand any more today...didn't have the focus. Mind was all over the place. Lack of sleep + my brain equals self destructive thoughts!
But...I started thinking about my current debts: House, Car, Regular bills and utils, Credit Cards, Insurance, blah blah freaking blah. Then I was sulky because I couldn't figure out a way out, blah blah freaking blah, and then this totally different - completely common sense idea came to me. I would love to have my house to myself again - or at least KNOW that I can afford to have it to myself w/out much stress!!! Banks are skimping on loans, the economy is going to be sucking for quite a while....SOOOOO.....rather than paying large amts on all these bills all the f-ing time...I'm going to pay large amounts on one bill, small on the rest. Until that one is paid. Then I'll move onto the next one. And so forth.
Okay...I don't know why I'm making a blog out of this....because I'M BORED THAT'S WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As a matter of fact....I'm cuttin' up on of my Credit Cards right now....here we go....one moment....drum roll please....
...YEP! I just did it! I hate that Capital One card anyway. I've had that card 11 years and they've done NOTHING for me.
Alright - one bill to get gone.....and we're on the way to freedom!!! A long road but will get there!!
Current mood:confident
As many of you can tell....I've been bored off my ass today!!! I've been on myspace...AND EVEN FACEBOOK - pretty much all day. Couldn't sand any more today...didn't have the focus. Mind was all over the place. Lack of sleep + my brain equals self destructive thoughts!
But...I started thinking about my current debts: House, Car, Regular bills and utils, Credit Cards, Insurance, blah blah freaking blah. Then I was sulky because I couldn't figure out a way out, blah blah freaking blah, and then this totally different - completely common sense idea came to me. I would love to have my house to myself again - or at least KNOW that I can afford to have it to myself w/out much stress!!! Banks are skimping on loans, the economy is going to be sucking for quite a while....SOOOOO.....rather than paying large amts on all these bills all the f-ing time...I'm going to pay large amounts on one bill, small on the rest. Until that one is paid. Then I'll move onto the next one. And so forth.
Okay...I don't know why I'm making a blog out of this....because I'M BORED THAT'S WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As a matter of fact....I'm cuttin' up on of my Credit Cards right now....here we go....one moment....drum roll please....
...YEP! I just did it! I hate that Capital One card anyway. I've had that card 11 years and they've done NOTHING for me.
Alright - one bill to get gone.....and we're on the way to freedom!!! A long road but will get there!!
Phrases which precede "That's What She Said"
Feb 18, 2009
Phrases which precede "That's What She Said"
Current mood:dirty
Alright ladies and gents, I'm sorry I've fallen off the "quote blog" wagon in the last few months. BUT....until I can get back on track with them, I am instead creating Phrases Which Precede "That's What She Said". This is especially for Julia and Tom.
1. Stick your tongue in it.
2. I like it against the wall.
3. Not a good place to hit it.
4. See how I tapped that?
5. You should take it in the crack.
6. Everything's becoming so lengthy.
7. I need to get workin' on that.
8. It's moist.
9. This one's horrible; it's bent.
10. I got it all in.
11. I'm fucking off.
12. I'm retiring on the top.
And my personal favorite from the list....
13. Once it hits your lips....it's just so good.
Phrases which precede "That's What She Said"
Current mood:dirty
Alright ladies and gents, I'm sorry I've fallen off the "quote blog" wagon in the last few months. BUT....until I can get back on track with them, I am instead creating Phrases Which Precede "That's What She Said". This is especially for Julia and Tom.
1. Stick your tongue in it.
2. I like it against the wall.
3. Not a good place to hit it.
4. See how I tapped that?
5. You should take it in the crack.
6. Everything's becoming so lengthy.
7. I need to get workin' on that.
8. It's moist.
9. This one's horrible; it's bent.
10. I got it all in.
11. I'm fucking off.
12. I'm retiring on the top.
And my personal favorite from the list....
13. Once it hits your lips....it's just so good.
Ummm.....a few more stats to add.....
Feb 16, 2009
Ummm...a few more stats to add....
Current mood:distractable
43 (I think). I can't EVER find my drill when I need it.
44. I find it incrediblly difficult to drive wearing glasses, when normally I wear contacts.
45. I think I need to meet Caeser Milan. Not because I need help with my dog. But because I think we should get married.
46. I am TERRIFIED of ice. Not driving on it...I can handle that just fine....WALKING ON IT!
47. I always distract myself when working on a project...ahem....like right now when I'm in the middle of sanding.
48. When I have a tough day, I like to look back and see all I've done for myself and realize the hardships that I've already went through....it makes me feel unstoppable (usually!).
49. I need a road trip. Man I miss those.
50. I'm excited for the day that I have less animals in this house. Not my babe though...she stays right here. :)
51. I hate touching chicken. I do it...have to - it's one of my favorite things to prepare...but I usually use a baggie or something when cutting it.
52. You know those Pilsbury cans of biscuits that you tear the paper and then they pop open...I hate those. I get like an anxiety attack when opening them.
53. Balloons - same thing. I hate the anticipation of being scared.
54. My dining room and kitchen are awesomely spotless right now. :)
55. I need to get back to sanding.
Ummm...a few more stats to add....
Current mood:distractable
43 (I think). I can't EVER find my drill when I need it.
44. I find it incrediblly difficult to drive wearing glasses, when normally I wear contacts.
45. I think I need to meet Caeser Milan. Not because I need help with my dog. But because I think we should get married.
46. I am TERRIFIED of ice. Not driving on it...I can handle that just fine....WALKING ON IT!
47. I always distract myself when working on a project...ahem....like right now when I'm in the middle of sanding.
48. When I have a tough day, I like to look back and see all I've done for myself and realize the hardships that I've already went through....it makes me feel unstoppable (usually!).
49. I need a road trip. Man I miss those.
50. I'm excited for the day that I have less animals in this house. Not my babe though...she stays right here. :)
51. I hate touching chicken. I do it...have to - it's one of my favorite things to prepare...but I usually use a baggie or something when cutting it.
52. You know those Pilsbury cans of biscuits that you tear the paper and then they pop open...I hate those. I get like an anxiety attack when opening them.
53. Balloons - same thing. I hate the anticipation of being scared.
54. My dining room and kitchen are awesomely spotless right now. :)
55. I need to get back to sanding.
Random Sabrina Facts
Feb 16, 2009
Random Sabrina Stats
Current mood:enlightened
Some of these are well known by everyone; some I just discovered on my own! Having time to yourself really makes you self aware.
1. I hate big spoons
2. I love big forks
3. I go to sleep on my side...but wake up on my back. (No jokes...jeerrrrks)
4. I could never own that kind of carpet that looks two different colors depending on which way you vacuum. It makes me OCD. (Notice I've torn up all the carpet in my house)
5. "Layla" (piano exit) always gives me the saddest heartwrenching feeling....because of Goodfellas....my favorite movie.
6. I can't imagine what it would be like to give a child up for adoption, but even moreso...I can't imagine what it would be like to adopt a child now with the open adoption process...fearing any drama of the birth parents.
7. I really miss living alone sometimes.
8. I hiccup ever time I take a first sip of Diet Coke (can or bottle).
9. I truly think I have some of the greatest friends I could ask for.
10. I've been getting the itch to move lately. Obviously with the house and everything...it's not possible at this time. And maybe I just have a case of spring fever. Maybe I'm just sad that I've grown out of my "free-spirit" ways. I don't know. I do know that there are a lot of places I haven't seen still. I guess that doesn't mean I have to "move" there...just looking for something new. Gotta' find out what that is, I suppose.
11. Once I start watching pretty much anything on TLC....I can't stop. (pssst....it's on right now!)
12. I love a high thread count in my sheets.
13. Three conversations that can get me mad as hell include: welfare, anti-depressants/ADHD, and "independent student" statuses (I'm passed the age, and graduated but still riled). Please don't assume that because these topics make me angry, that I am completely against the issue. It's the way the issues are handled.
14. Cracklin Oat Bran is dee-lish!
15. My socks barely ever match unless they are nylon socks.
16. I can't clean my left ear w/out choking/coughing.
17. I hate the feeling of vibrations in my hands (SHUT UP!). I mean large things (will you just let me finish already?) Lawnmowers....or a shopping cart on the paved bumpy parking lot...*shivers* hate it.
18. The sound of cardboard against itself is almost just as bad.
19. I like almost every kind of music. I think country really started to blow after about 95....but I like some earlier stuff.
20. I like when a man likes female singers.
21. I can't sleep when my feet are cold.
22. I don't understand how/why people break their phones. I know so many people who have tantrums and break their phone by throwing it...or they lose it....how do these things happen? Why are you throwing your phone???? Set it down....throw a cat or something.
23. I couldn't stand school....but I thrive on learning every day.
24. 24 is my favorite number.
25. I don't like the smell of blueberry things. (incident w/ moldy blueberry bagel in high school)
26. I've said this before...but that feeling of drinking something cold on an empty stomach and feeling it makes its route to your tummy....is just the COOLEST feeling!!!!
27. It's very important to share photos and stories of your loved ones with your children at an early age. Especially when those loved ones just can't visit as often as they'd like.
28. I whine when I'm tired. Not really a whine...more like a whimper. Julia, how would you describe that? And don't say "annoying"!
29. The Ring was a great movie. But it scared the hell out of me. And I think...I think that might be why I can't watch scary movies anymore. Not kidding - I haven't gotten through a scary movie since 2003.
30. It irritates me when people think it's weird that I ask for power tools/menards supplies and such for Christmas. My house is my project...it's hard work...and it's something that makes me feel proud. No tools - no progress.
31. Don't ever use the "you're a girl" shit towards me. You will be sorry. (ahem...Joel...."well we aren't playing slop...but...you're a girl".) Whatcha!!! (for anyone who doesn't know - that's my George Lopez voice)
32. I'm REALLY happy about having the next few days off (mostly off).
33. Someone should buy me a nice 52" flatscreen TV.
34. I don't like the stereotypical scents that women are said to love...like baby powder or vanilla. Too overpowering.
35. I just watched a hilarious clip of a best man tripping on a step - and knocking the bride and the priest into the pool. HAHAHAHA!!!
36. I like when people smile. And it's genuine.
37. I feel like the look now a days - is 18 year olds trying to look - almost like they're 30... There's this particular hair style i'm thinking of....hmmm.....if I see it - I'll let you know.
38. I like the game of Life.
39. For a long time I was afraid of showering when no one else was in the house.
40. I understand the teeny bopper bad bad craze that hits the little pre teen girls. I was one. Last night I was watching SNL...and the Jonas Brothers were on. I have heard of them...but had never heard them. All I have to say is "WTF?!??!" The songs were terrible, they could barely carry a tune (the lead singer was the WORST singer!), I'm just so confused!
41. Speaking of...I've never understood "Kidz Bop" - if you're a kid...and you like the song....why would you want to listen a bunch of other kids sing it...
42. I am extremely laid back and easy to live with...but if I'm sleeping - be respectful and keep it down. My heart will beat with fury when people are loud and I'm sleeping.
GOOD NIGHT!
Random Sabrina Stats
Current mood:enlightened
Some of these are well known by everyone; some I just discovered on my own! Having time to yourself really makes you self aware.
1. I hate big spoons
2. I love big forks
3. I go to sleep on my side...but wake up on my back. (No jokes...jeerrrrks)
4. I could never own that kind of carpet that looks two different colors depending on which way you vacuum. It makes me OCD. (Notice I've torn up all the carpet in my house)
5. "Layla" (piano exit) always gives me the saddest heartwrenching feeling....because of Goodfellas....my favorite movie.
6. I can't imagine what it would be like to give a child up for adoption, but even moreso...I can't imagine what it would be like to adopt a child now with the open adoption process...fearing any drama of the birth parents.
7. I really miss living alone sometimes.
8. I hiccup ever time I take a first sip of Diet Coke (can or bottle).
9. I truly think I have some of the greatest friends I could ask for.
10. I've been getting the itch to move lately. Obviously with the house and everything...it's not possible at this time. And maybe I just have a case of spring fever. Maybe I'm just sad that I've grown out of my "free-spirit" ways. I don't know. I do know that there are a lot of places I haven't seen still. I guess that doesn't mean I have to "move" there...just looking for something new. Gotta' find out what that is, I suppose.
11. Once I start watching pretty much anything on TLC....I can't stop. (pssst....it's on right now!)
12. I love a high thread count in my sheets.
13. Three conversations that can get me mad as hell include: welfare, anti-depressants/ADHD, and "independent student" statuses (I'm passed the age, and graduated but still riled). Please don't assume that because these topics make me angry, that I am completely against the issue. It's the way the issues are handled.
14. Cracklin Oat Bran is dee-lish!
15. My socks barely ever match unless they are nylon socks.
16. I can't clean my left ear w/out choking/coughing.
17. I hate the feeling of vibrations in my hands (SHUT UP!). I mean large things (will you just let me finish already?) Lawnmowers....or a shopping cart on the paved bumpy parking lot...*shivers* hate it.
18. The sound of cardboard against itself is almost just as bad.
19. I like almost every kind of music. I think country really started to blow after about 95....but I like some earlier stuff.
20. I like when a man likes female singers.
21. I can't sleep when my feet are cold.
22. I don't understand how/why people break their phones. I know so many people who have tantrums and break their phone by throwing it...or they lose it....how do these things happen? Why are you throwing your phone???? Set it down....throw a cat or something.
23. I couldn't stand school....but I thrive on learning every day.
24. 24 is my favorite number.
25. I don't like the smell of blueberry things. (incident w/ moldy blueberry bagel in high school)
26. I've said this before...but that feeling of drinking something cold on an empty stomach and feeling it makes its route to your tummy....is just the COOLEST feeling!!!!
27. It's very important to share photos and stories of your loved ones with your children at an early age. Especially when those loved ones just can't visit as often as they'd like.
28. I whine when I'm tired. Not really a whine...more like a whimper. Julia, how would you describe that? And don't say "annoying"!
29. The Ring was a great movie. But it scared the hell out of me. And I think...I think that might be why I can't watch scary movies anymore. Not kidding - I haven't gotten through a scary movie since 2003.
30. It irritates me when people think it's weird that I ask for power tools/menards supplies and such for Christmas. My house is my project...it's hard work...and it's something that makes me feel proud. No tools - no progress.
31. Don't ever use the "you're a girl" shit towards me. You will be sorry. (ahem...Joel...."well we aren't playing slop...but...you're a girl".) Whatcha!!! (for anyone who doesn't know - that's my George Lopez voice)
32. I'm REALLY happy about having the next few days off (mostly off).
33. Someone should buy me a nice 52" flatscreen TV.
34. I don't like the stereotypical scents that women are said to love...like baby powder or vanilla. Too overpowering.
35. I just watched a hilarious clip of a best man tripping on a step - and knocking the bride and the priest into the pool. HAHAHAHA!!!
36. I like when people smile. And it's genuine.
37. I feel like the look now a days - is 18 year olds trying to look - almost like they're 30... There's this particular hair style i'm thinking of....hmmm.....if I see it - I'll let you know.
38. I like the game of Life.
39. For a long time I was afraid of showering when no one else was in the house.
40. I understand the teeny bopper bad bad craze that hits the little pre teen girls. I was one. Last night I was watching SNL...and the Jonas Brothers were on. I have heard of them...but had never heard them. All I have to say is "WTF?!??!" The songs were terrible, they could barely carry a tune (the lead singer was the WORST singer!), I'm just so confused!
41. Speaking of...I've never understood "Kidz Bop" - if you're a kid...and you like the song....why would you want to listen a bunch of other kids sing it...
42. I am extremely laid back and easy to live with...but if I'm sleeping - be respectful and keep it down. My heart will beat with fury when people are loud and I'm sleeping.
GOOD NIGHT!
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